ME!

have you ever heard the phrase; objects in mirror are closer than they appear?

it’s silly, but i think about that saying sometimes while i type up new entries on here. it’s so fun to me that she knows what i look like but hasn’t got any clue what i’ve been up to! she has no identifiers for me beyond the surfacemost level, even though i think about her everyday. she can look directly at me, see me in her peripheral, hold the door open and let me through, and never know that i am far, far closer than she perceives me to be. a stranger, an acquaintance, but once i know enough i’ll get even closer.

it's exciting and romantic. she doesn't even know it, but i've been shaping myself into her perfect partner for the past year! its the best thing ive ever done for myself. ive become better for her.

that’s all you need to know about me: if she found this before i could show her, obviously i wouldnt want to spoil that its me! privacy matters, for sure. and, if its worked out already and youre reading this, hi honey, ive loved you for longer than you know! <3

want proof? i guess you can read MY DIARY